''My husband's drunkeness forced me to sleep with my Ex''

 I left my husband because I was having brilliant sex with my lover - but now I think I’ve made a big mistake. 

I’ve been married 18 years. I’m 38 and my husband is 40. My husband is a big drinker and he would drink for days on end and not come home. When he wasn’t drinking, he was thinking about it. 

I ran into an ex-boyfriend when I was in town a few months ago and we went for a coffee together. He was unhappy in his relationship and I told him about mine. 

We kept meeting up until one afternoon, he kissed me. It was years since my husband had even held my hand and it felt so good to be wanted again. We started an affair and it was really passionate.

Things were great for a few weeks then my husband found out, and phoned my lover’s partner and told her what had been going on. We both had no choice but to leave home.

We rented a house together and he does treat me well but we’ve started to argue more. Because he pays the lion’s share of the bills, I have to ask his permission for anything I do or buy for the house. If he doesn’t want it, then I don’t have a say in the matter.

It was never like this with my husband. My lover makes me feel that it is his home and not mine.

My husband has been in touch about some of his possessions and it was lovely to hear his voice. I miss what we had together and parts of the life I had. He wants me back, has asked me to leave my lover and promises he won’t drink. Am I mad to consider going back?